Why? .... Running When Things Get Rough

[Ruby Haskins]

Why?

1Kings 19:12 ` And after the earthquake, a fire but the Lord was not in the fire, and after the fire, a still small voice.

Running When Things Get Rough

Running, running for my life, have to escape this enervating strife.
So very tired, just want to die I'm even to tired to sit and cry.
Twice I'm awakened from sleep, told to eat and drink up.
You're going to need to strength, so it's time to sup.
Then a voice questioning, "Why are you here?"
Why am I here? I was doing Your will.
Now Your enemies are all wishing me ill.
I don't understand Lord. why You let these things happen to me.
I'm left all alone, Why wouldn't I flee?
I've built a tall mountain, a monument of my work to You;
And, "what is this? This great wind that's suddenly flowing through?"
It's destoying what I've built, dashing the mountain into small rock.
Lord is this You? But no, I know that it's not.
What I now feel, the earth moving, trembling, shaking beneath me.
The things I'm feeling, they just can't be. Doesn't seem to be much left of me.
Now there is fire, hot flaming fire; burning away all self desire.
And I ask, Oh. Lord, is this you?
But I get no answer from the things that I've built.
The wind, the shaking, the fire of my own making
Has caused my self ambitions to wilt.
And I hear Thee, suddenly, in a voice soft and still.
And again the same question; Why are you here?
And again I try, by blaming others to justify, but You're not buying.
There are other children of Mine. Just like them, They've work yet to do.
I'll let you know when you are through. And I'll be the One that builds, Not You.
Written by Ruby Haskins

[Ruby Haskins]

I know. I really love them. It's a small church and my pastor works for a living. When people try to tell me that preaching is just a money making deal, I can truly tell them from a self-knowledge base that this is not true of real preachers. Some like Paul and Timothy preach simply because God sends them and strive not to be a burden. We should give gladly and freely but the prosperity preacher who teaches that God wants us to all be rich is a wolf in sheeps clothing. Abou Windows messenger, I don't know if and when someone is busy getting something done on a program or site so I have stopped writing to them. I don't want to interrupt them in work, so am trying to tell them, if they want to or have time to talk, ring me. Then when time is up, tell me so.
Blessings, ~Ruby

[Ronald A. Nelson]

Ruby... tell your pastor's wife hi for me... and may God bless her for being instant in season and out... to encourage and exhort. You are truly blessed to have such a congregation.

Prophet.

[Ruby Haskins]

Tyank you, means a lot coming from you. I know you are a gifted writer. When I started first writing an got on onternet, I found all these gifted people and started using their writings in the church magazine, almost stopped mine. The pastors wife told me she'd noticed I wasn't putting much of mine in mag. lately, why? So I told her there were so many better gifted. Got a ear burning message from gher aout spoiled brats who would take a gt from god and then look around at gifts god gave others and then through Gods gifts back at Him because we felt He'd given them better. Sometimes pastors wifes are tougher than the paster. I've been lucky. God placed me in a church where both the pastor and his wife let you know when you are wrong about something. I know all churches aren't like this. I try to not compare myself to others anymore. She made me read that verse. I didn't at the time even realize it was there. It's surprising what you learn a little at a time over eigth years. It's been a great eight years.
Blessings,
Ruby

[Ronald A. Nelson]

Ruby, Ruby... so bright... where doth the light shine to night.

Your verses and dedication too the Lord are a memorial to your faithful service. You bring joy to many through your songs and writings... through your faithful service.

God Bless you.

Prophet.

[Ruby Haskins]

When I reading this in the Bible about Elijah, running in fear from Jezenel after what should have been the greatest of triumps, it seemed so farfetched, his state of mind. Depression does strange things to us. I'n worthless, all alone, nothing matters. Thats the great thing about the Bible. We see that even the best of the Bible characters were human, had to fight the same battles but God straightens things out, gives us the right perspective on things. God is reality. I like your verses.
Bless you, Ruby

[Ronald A. Nelson]

Fine Poem Ruby...

Man builds and rebuilds, only to find.... That the works of his own hands, cannot stand the test of time... For when the wind doth blow, they are all left behind... As, man to his master doth bow... he finds... his works are but vanities of the... mind.

How we do wrest... against the spirit... Tossing about in our minds, the ways of the world, only to find... that like the dew of the grass, they vanish in the presence of the Son... For all that we do in our own strength, vanish in the consuming fire of God's Son... The flesh, is full of ambition... the will of men, exist too exalt his own right... but God alone, is able to build an eternal house... all that man does, without God, is vanity and vexation of the spirit.

Prophet.